going to leave all the pain away , so applause me yay ! :D

It has been a month plus , we break off. And I do admit , it was the uttermost long , full of painful and tears all the days I’ve been through without you. Everyday , I’ve tried to be strong , not even wanna think bout you.  But yeah , its hard. After 4 wonderful years being together , share our laughs and tears , you left me with lots of unanswered questions that make me wonder why you did change. And that’s make me hard to move on , because you keep saying that you love me and still hoping for us get back together. Maybe , it was my fault loving you to much as I never did before. If only you could crawl inside my mind and see what am I thinking and feeling , if only. Maybe then you only could understand why I love you too much. I did think of you over and over until tears trickled down my cheeks. I hate this feeling , its killing me like seriously.

Goddammit , YES , I never met a guy like him before. He treated me like a princess within those days and years. But yeah , things happen for a reason. God never test you something that you couldn’t handle. So , when things are bad , just remember , things always get better someday.

Just by this moment , I’m not ready to be loved by anyone else. Let time decides for me. But people around me said that , love is something that we fall into not we crush onto it. Sometimes we have to give chances to ourselves to be loved again. But yeah , I think I didn’t found  the suitable guy that suit me much , or maybe , because I’m getting fobia in this matter. Everyday , I keep praying for my sake , and I 
know that God reserve the best guy for me , amin. 

my hero ever :)

today is father's day and yeah i just can see papa's face through phone :'( but i could shout louder tadi hihi , HAPPY FATHER'S DAY Paaaa ! papa balik this friday , cant wait for that seriously , imissyouu so much paa <3

sure someone out there yang feel curious mana my dad pegi kan , i mean for those who yang tak rapat sgt with me. my dad is working at jakarta so he just come back home at least twice a week. i feel so jealous with other yang papa dorang ada jee ngn dorang all the time , but nak bwt mcm mana , he has his job there. but but , wherever he is , papa always by my side , i know that and i will always love youu forever paa ! :)

i come to realize that someday , i will meet a man who will be my husband and accompany me all the time and what i wish is i realy realy want that man to be definitely like my dad. he is the coolest man in the world i think. papa tak pernah rotan i , even secubit pun. and bila nyamuk gigit pun dia dah worry bawak pegi clinic. see guys , how much he loves me right :)) papa is the best man i ever met , he treats me like a princess. even sometimes i felt like disappointed sebab he didnt trust me that his gegirl nii can independent and treated me like i am 5 y.o stil , but i know , he did all that thingy because he cares a lot bout me. seriously , i love him with all my heart.

so paa , when you get back homie this fridayy , we'll celebrate father's day okay ? :) hihi , rinduu nak hug papa seriously. here is a poem special to my hero , En Mohd Rosli Bin Hussin <3

When I was a baby, 
you would hold me in your arms.
I felt the love and tenderness, 
keeping me safe from harm.
I would look up into your eyes, 
and all the love I would see.
How did I get so lucky, 
you were the dad chosen for me.
There is something special 
about a father's love.
Seems it was sent to me 
from someplace up above.
Our love is everlasting, 
I just wanted you to know.
That you’re my special hero and I wanted to tell you so.
xoxo

p/s : thank you for your love and everything my dear papa :) *and also for my atm machine , lol ;pp
nanti gamba papa i'll upload banyak banyak next post insyaallah.

Nora Elena fever :)

oh myy , im very sure that most of us are Nora Elena's fans right ? its like a fever , dulu bieber fever and now nora elena pulak. but i think better the tittle is more specific to the hero tadaaa SETH ! :) yeah , i love him , em i mean the way he treats Nora. i love those moment where he just keep smile and patient even Nora tak sukaa tehee <3 and yess , i really want a guy like him , to be my future husband :)

and and just now i saw a video posted by my friend bout her friend's wedding. haha lagilah tambah miang i tak nak belajar dah nak kawen jee terus :D hee so since ive nothing to do , so lets share what are the criteria of a guy for a girl to be fall into *ini bukan nak promote haha.

First , BERIMAN ! 
for sure , i need someone who can guide me in all ways and paling penting someone yang will jadi imam solat 5 waktu sehari semalam saya and family insyaallah :)

Second , EDUCATED :)
yeah , ilmu itu penting and people will not doing something bad if they realy have education. i mean , kau nak ke husband kau sampai SPM jee kan ? you get what i mean kan. i didnt demand that i will get marry to whoever yang MESTI ada phd or 'doctor' kat depan nama dia. just ada education yet and its fine lah.

Third , UNDERSTANDING.
ini pun important for a girl like me. err ada ke , ke i sorang jee yang mengada :/ haha okay whatever but i really need a guy yang sgt understanding to be my husband. someone yang willing to pujuk me even i merajuk just sebab simple thingy , yang willing to do anything for our happiness , yang betul betul taw how i feel semuaa yeah i hope that much. and and it's not only last for few months , i mean forever. i need a guy who can be by my side all the time , stay same treating me like the 1st we met. amin :) and the most important is someone yang boleh jaga rumahtangga sama sama. i mean , tak buat bini dia mcm orang gaji. i wish to have a husband yang willing masak together , beli groceries together , jaga anak together , oh myy that so sweet is it ? :)

Forth , FUNNY :D
nak pleaseee ! hee , i bukan nak mcm zizan or nabil tu lol ;pp i mean yang boleh buat i gelak and happy everyday since i wake up in the morning til i close my eyes at night. kalau mcm nii sumpah saya sayang awak sgt sgt sgt teheee :D

Fifth , CARING AND LOVING !
ini MESTI ! semua girls pun nak guy mcm nii believe me. a guy who shows his love to his wife , mcm SETH tuuu. i realy want a guy like that. always make surprises for me , even simple thing pun , i will appreciate because it shows your love. always care bout everything happen to me , mcm cerita Nora Elena , see how the story gave impact to me kan ? hee , but seriously , i need a guy like that to be my future husband.

Sixth , EXPENSIVE.
okay , i nak yang mahal. bukan perempuan jee kena mahal nowadays , but for a guy pun. you get what i mean ? i mean , a guy yang bukan senang nak fall in love. pantang nampak perempuan sexy ke lawaa ke depan mata terus jeling jeling bagai. i hate it. bukan jelous sgt act but yeah , if they have bad attitude like that , no wonder someday they will find another girls kan ? saya nak yang setia mcm SETH , hanya saya dihatinya walaupun saya tak cun mcm Vanessa Hudgen tuu * rupa tak penting sgt kan :)

Seventh and lastly , HANDSOME and BERDUIT :/
yess , this criteria nampak mcm weird kan. actually , i dont really need a guy yang handsome sgt pun. for me , rupa tak penting yang penting hati :) but if handsome tu bonus lah kan :D heee , i just need a guy yang smart tak selekeh. but dia mesti kena taller than me , tak byk pun sikit hihi. and bout money , i bukan nak anak dato' or tans sri whatsoever tuu. kalau mcm tu balik i tackle TMJ jee kan ;pp haha , i mean yang ada duit lah , takkan nak bagi makan pun using my money right. yang boleh tanggung i and family thats it :)

opsiee , i forgot something important , i tak suka SMOKER fullstop :/ so i dont need a smoker and NO SMOKING pleasee ! okay yang lain lain like baik hati , peramah , pemurah semuaa tuu pun i nak jugak actually but the top criteria are as above tehee :D em , dont get me wring huh , i bukan nak cari calon or what posting this post , but i was like teruja sgt sgt sgt dgn SETH tuu hihi.

p/s : do pray for me to find a GOOD guy to be my future husband :)

Welcome to new BIBIK -_-''

hey peeps ! :) this post act to tell you guys bout what am i doing these few days and on. the holie is just passing slowly err i mean i felt that because ive nothing much to do :/ okay yay pity me huh. haha :D but people around did told me that how lucky am i , just staying at home and can get the money. yeah but i need more experience bebeh ! :D okay enough , i got a job guys. guess what ? act , mama gave me the job , i become new BIBIK. but but this bibik is hot much okay :D im going to be a tutor i mean haha but tak boleh challenge my Calculus tutor , that for sure hihi sorry En Jedzry :P i become a tutor for my adik since his result dropped during the midsem exam. alah mama chill lah baru standard 4 * my adik buat mukaa. haha jangan main main nii tutor HULK datang ajar haa hambik kau , err -_-''

 haa , ini dia student saya :))

err , act my motive put along this pic sebab i miss my dad :'( paaa , balik cepat dah rinduuu nii.

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.

hello readers , im being so lazy to upload my pics to USS , idk why -_-" hey hey but im not in mood swing anymore , i just lazy to do that thingy i guess haha :D okay act , i post this entry just wana to share some interesting quotes , eh what we called , its not quote but emm you guys buat buat faham jelah ngeng ! ;pp

 yeah , im not afraid to love , im just afraid of not being loved back and bla bla bla :D


then , i saw this cute coversation , comell gila is it ?

okay people , dont feel shy to impress your love towards your love ones , just say it. iloveyouuu haa kan senang ;pp

and peeps , if you fail AGAIN , never be regret or upset. just smile and begin your new life :)

Beauty Tips teheee :D

Hey girlss , today im going to be a dermatologist haha :D eh no , i mean i would like to share bout the beauty tips for teens :)) being a teen in today's world brings many pressures from society to look good. the media is full of beautiful faces that add to the stress of growing up. like seriously , i adore Vanessa Hudgen much. but , dont let that undermine you self confidence ! what's a girl need to do ? here are many ways to enhance your natural beauty and keep a practical skin care and makeup routine. but remember , good posture and a smile give a great first impression :)

Skin Care Tips

Teenagers have different skin care and makeup needs than women. At what age should a teen begin a skin care regimen? Skin care should actually start when they are preteens, as early as the age of 10 or 11. Hormones start to kick in and blemishes may begin to appear.

As you mature, your skin care needs will change, as your skin does. Pay special attention to what products you are using and if there are any undesirable affects taking place. What makes your skin look radiant one month may cause blemishes and break-outs the next.

Moisturizer

At an early age, a light moisturizer may be called for, but do not use heavy creams made for dry skin. Choose a product that is formulated for light skin care maintenance that does not block your pores. A heavy moisturizer will probably wreak havoc and cause pimples. Try using a light moisturizer only once a day, before bedtime. Any more often than that is probably overdoing it. For combination skin, spot-moisturize. Instead of using moisturizer on your entire face, use it only on dry areas and keep it off of your t-zone.

Pimples and Blemishes

Acne is the #1 skin care concern for teens. Keep your face and hair clean, wash your hands frequently, and keep them away from your face. There are many products available on the market today for acne prevention and cures, and they are much more effective than years ago.

Once you begin experiencing problems, take action to avoid lifetime scarring. You can go to the Blemishes Page to find out how to get rid of pimples, preventative maintenance, and how to reduce the appearance of them once they appear.

Makeup for Teenagers

Most teenage girls begin wearing light makeup around the ages of 12-13 as they become more aware of their appearance. As a teen, your makeup should look natural and enhance your facial features. Don't overdo it, this will only make you look silly. With a few simple, inexpensive products, you can play up your finest features and look great!

Keep your makeup light for school. You don't need to use it on every facial feature you have! Mix and match to find out what looks best on you. For parties, you may want to add a little more makeup to add some glam. Make sure you blend it in well with your fingers or a cosmetics brush. Check it in bright light when you're finished.

Foundation

Foundation for teens is not necessary. While it can clog your pores, it will also look overdone. Skip the foundation and use a concealer on your blemishes only. Lightly dust on some loose powder over your entire face to even out your skin tone, control oil, and set the concealer.

Freckles

Don't try to hide your freckles. You may not appreciate them, but they are part of you. Exposure to sunlight makes freckles darker so avoiding the sun and using a sunscreen will keep them in check. As you get older, they can fade and won't be much of an issue.

Eye Makeup

You may not be interested in eye shadow until you're a little older. If so, that's great. When you do begin wearing it, keep it light and use any trendy metallics and sparkles sparingly. They can flake off into your eyes and cause irritation. Eye shadow does not have to match your eyes, however, earth tones (tan, brown, gray) are very complimentary to blue, brown and hazel eyes.

When you begin using mascara, brown works best for both blondes and brunettes. Black is probably too harsh, especially in the daytime. If you think brown isn't dark enough, try brownish-black. Waterproof mascara may be necessary for sports and outdoor activities in warm weather. It stays on longer and doesn't run, but it's harder to take off. It's best to keep mascara and all makeup to a minimum and you won't have to worry about undesired smearing.

If you're going to use an eyeliner, a pencil liner looks more natural than liquid liner. Learn to apply it with a steady hand for straight lines, and blot it with a tissue if you get it on too dark.

Blush

Liquid and stick blush are popular choices for teens because they glide on smoothly and blend in well. Pinks and peaches compliment almost any skin tone. Apply to the apple of your cheeks and blend outwards, towards your hairline.

Lips

For luscious lips, lip gloss does the trick. If you want to add some color to your lips for a nighttime look, try a lipstick in a sheer color. For extra shine, put the lip gloss on over your lipstick. Always have lip balm handy for chapped lips.

Guidance for surviving a break-up thingy :)

Hey readers , losing a loved one after a break-up can be a painful and emotionally debilitating experience. at times , getting out of bed and taking a shower might seem like a chore. like any wound , it takes time to heal which can be a long process. you might find yourself on an emotional rollercoaster ride with feelings ranging from denial , bargaining , anger , anxiety and sadness , to forgiveness , compassion , love , regret , guilt and eventually healing. 
One minute it might feel like you’re caught in an updraft and everything is fine , then the next minute you’ve plunged into a downdraft and are struggling for breath. if you’re wondering why this is happening to you , the reason will be clear later , just know right now , you will survive and you will get through it insyaallah ! :)


so today , i would like to share with all of you something , and yeah i know im not that tough MUCH but i've been gone through this thingy and thanks God for giving me much strength to move on. 

When You are Spiritually, Emotionally and Physically Ready ;

Acknowledge The Loss. 

When you have gone through the denial stage , reality sets in. Wow! That really happened. It wasn’t a nightmare. It was REAL. It takes time to acknowledge the loss. The most important thing to remember is Keep the faith! You are strong and you will survive ! :D

Take On Only What You Can. 

This is your time to nurture your soul. You do not have to be a super human and take on additional responsibility. Take on only what is reasonable within your mental and physical limits. Say “No” and pay attention to how good it feels. Right now, this time is about healing you!

Surround Yourself With Good Situations. 

If watching celebrity brides on the E channel depresses you, turn it off. If you don’t want to be around couples, then do something different. And like seriously , i hate looking for those couple hugging at malls as they SUCK me off ;pp You have choices and you need to make choices that make you feel good :)

Surround Yourself With People Who Are Supportive. 

Having a good friend in your life is important. You will want someone who will listen and be there for you when you are sad. Remember that , true friends hear whatever words that you do not say yet. *iloveyouuu GFss <3

Embrace Personal Growth. 

People come into our lives for a reason whether its to teach us a lesson or for spiritual growth, they are here to show us something. Once we take responsibility and stop blaming others for our situation , then our true path becomes more clear.

Rebuild Your Life.

When a relationship ends , it can be a painful journey , so take this time to re-focus your priorities , build your self-esteem , and look inward. Stop for a moment and ask yourself. What have I always wanted to do, to see, to be? This is your opportunity to embrace a new and better life. Be Open to Change :)

Cry.

Do cry as loud as you can , relief yourself like a newborn baby , it is not the matter. It is good for you to express yourself and let the anger and sadness out. but , don't drag every night keep crying like that because do realize that the other side is not deserve your tears a lot. It's so pathetic. Hee :D

Listen To Sad Songs

Okay , this is not funny or 'jiwang' , but it is the right time for you to listen those love songs. And believe me , in this situation , we just blame on the DJs because keep repeting turning on those sad songs is it ? and we feel that all those songs dedicated for us. Haha , booooo me if i felt it alone ! okay enough , but seriously , try to listen sad songs and it will make you relief slowly. Dah , now turn on your radio and do listen to Lagenda Budak Setan teheee ;pp

Empty Recycle Bin

Yeah , this is the toughest thing i guess. Dont ever let your brain keep thinking bout your memories. It is not good for our soul , seriously , instead it just make us feel down and upset. Just delete the pictures or whatever thingy he gave you or maybe , if you're not ready for that yet , just keep them away from you. until you move on someday , barulah boleh tengok balik semuaa tuu and start laughing at yourself :D

Talk To Your Bff.

It is okay , talk to your Bff who you trust most. Tell them what is going on , how do you feel. Then after sometimes , STOP talking bout that thingy again. Or even dropping his name in your conversation , relating his name with all incidents happened between you and him. What for keep relating those thingy is it , it is just a pat for you. Live your life , let your experience lead you for learning and living. If you have no one to talk to , do remember , we have GOD. Allah always there for us , always by our sides. Do pray a lot , and mintak lah semoga ditemukan dengan jodoh yang baik insyaallah :)

Having MUCH Fun.

This is what i did most. Stop hurting yourself , letting your mood swing against you. Show to them that you're not that fragile to be hurt to. life is too short to be unhappy is it ? :) so dont ever let your mind thinking bout the past , sikit sikit takpelah. when you have leisure time , calls your friends , hangout together and grab MUCH fun. you can do lots of activities instead of wasting you golden time thinking for that dumbass :D Opsie sorry ;pp

Change Routine

If last time , you keep on call with him till late night and now its all over. During previous time , every morning its your routine to wake him up bla bla blaa. But now , since he's gone , when you wake up in the morning , there's no more sweet text from him rite ? Yeah GIRLS , this is what we called life. Its a norm , i do understand how it works. But as time passing through , believe me everything gonna be fine :) change your routine. Okay , for example , when you wake up in the morning , try to find your mum and dad. prepare for their breakfast or in the simple words , make youself busier. It'll work well ! 

Date With Everyone.

If in previous , you don't have a chance to go out with anyone else besides him , so now is the time. Hello , im not teaching you becoming a player okay ! Haha annoy much huh ;pp But honestly , this is the chance for you to get to know people who are come from different walks of life. Make lots of friends and you may know it feel. But don't jump into conclusion , i said make friends and learn bout life much , not giving your pride easily to them ! Its a warning *buat muka serious niii >.< going out eating , watching movies or wahtever thingy you feel fancy , just do it. lagi satu reminder , this is not the process or like rancangan cari jodoh huh ! its just to get a good look of the outside world and what God does give to us , mankind :) 

Open Your Heart And Soul.

Okay no need to shut your heart and soul with a little padlock for long time , sweetheart. When you're completely moving on , do give youself chance to be loved again. Dont be too cruel to yourself , because it make you become worst jee nanti. Remember , someday , someone will walk into your life at the right time for a right reason. God send him for you , let you to know why it is does not worked with anyone else before. So , just open up your heart and let your Mr Perfect suits you ! :) 

HAHA , enough im not the Dr Love , im lack of idea now teheee ;pp Oh btw , on the road to success, there's a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends & red lights called enemies. So , moving on people , live your life ! :D

You know my name, not my story. You've heard what I've done, not what I've been thru. So stop judging me.

Hello ladies and gentleman ! okay , by now im getting sick with people who are always be unhappy looking at my happiness. i mean , not everyone but some of them , or specifically him. if u read this entry , please realize. what is your problem act ? between us are nothing anymore , common man , do be matured solving this matter. we did chose this way , so do accept it. you want to be like this rite , so what for you texting my friends asking bout this and that. why with the word 'dumbass' ? they have their right to say that word i guess , but if you think youre not such a dumbass its up to you. but the matter is , no need to disturb my friends as im not disturbing your fiends at all. mayb last time we did , but now is not the same as we get used. so , get my point. and one more , dont ever sign up my Facebook like you get used before because you dont have any right anymore. do realize that Mann ! and for you guys , whoever get that message or whatever you heard bout me , bout my rules that have been told by him , you have your own right to trust for. im just an ordinary girl , but do bear in mind , i have my own pride , my own style and my own attitude. dont judge me till you've looked through my eyes , experienced what i have and cried as many tears as me , untill then , you have no idea.

and Neil Gaiman is true ;

okay done with my mood swing :/ i could give you a huge smile as well , see this tadaaaa :))
p/s : tomorrow im going to USS , so wish me having so MUCH fun tomorrow yay ! :D